Confused lyrics

On which side am I?
this one or this one
i'm so messed up
and I can't fuckin' understand
what's going on
i've found myself
cut in a position - once again
that i'm don't know
if that's the way
that i wanted it to be

And I'm so confused
was sure we're going
in a special direction
guess I was wrong again
can't seem to find an answer or salvation

The TV is shut
Yeah i'm alone again
thinking of where i was
where i've been
my walls are white
but i see only black
it can't be you
cause i don't think
that your shadow
is that big

And I'm so confused
was sure we're going
in a special direction
guess I was wrong again
can't seem to find an answer or salvation

sometimes it feels so weird
and I don't know what to decide
this side or this side
my mind is so messed up
can I manage on my own?
or do I need you by my side
to help me clear my doubts
and to find my way out